the off-tune important nothing

The dreams which I had these days are a bit too abstract. I think that that is the reason for that I cannot remember any of their plot in details. But I remember that I was always rather attentive or rather concerned in the dreams nevertheless, for something which are not so much closely linked with the current reality.
But why should my brain be occupied by something which do not have the immedately relation to the current happenlings? Is that my subconscious has gone too far unpractical, or, is the all mighty lord trying to unveil certain truth to me yet that is incomprehensible to my unlighted mind, just like what Baoyu experienced in his early life?
Last night, I had a little difficulty for falling asleep, Then my thought was drifting around and drafting the dedication which I would like to put on the collection of my diaries, which I plan to publish next year.
'To my darling Kai, a finest creature in this world, who believes every word that I say and therefore, saved a lot of my limited energy from dealing with meaningless matters, such as straighten things up from hypocratic utterances or deeds.'
Yesterday, my husband uploaded an old song of Hot-Pot onto Youtube with some background photos which I took in 2002. Actually, there should be more photos from the gigs and rehearsals of Hot-Pot, which I stored, could be used for that purpose. Unfortunately, the disc which contains those photos could not be read by our computers any more. I wish we could still find some means to access them eventually.
Probably, our computers are getting simply too old, just like we are.
Recently, I have discovered a new phenomenon from my own singing; my voice is no more controlable by myself and often gone off-tune. I hope this is not a generalized status of my existence . hahaha~~